Then Monday Austin’s car broke down and wouldn’t start so we had it towed to a shop. We thought it was going to be a $600 repair. But then it turned out that Austin’s car was much more damaged than previously believed. We learned that it was going to cost $1600 to repair. More money than we have and more money than the car would be worth to fix considering that much money could be put into a new car that wasn’t constantly and consistently being the bane of our existence. For some reason I kinda just shut down. I became angry, heartbroken, depressed, worried, stressed, and hopeless. My thoughts of optimism changed to thoughts that everything would continue to go wrong. Nothing would work out. Things would never get better. We were totally and utterly cursed. So, I just forgot about my goal. I instead ate chocolate and watched a movie with Taylor and Austin.
Fortunately, time has a way of settling things down. Though I’m still not sleeping, I woke up this morning feeling much better about things. Things are still not resolved and the problems are still there, but I know we’ll get through it because we always have in the past and because Austin and I have made a promise to each other that no matter what happens, we will make it through whatever life throws our way.
1. No driving!!!
2. I’m saving a lot of gas, which means I’m saving lots of money. (I was filling up about every 4 work days. With gas being about $50 to fill up now, you can imagine how much I was spending.)
3. No traffic!!
4. No more struggling to be on time for work. (One of the things I hated the most and stressed about a lot.)
5. I get two more hours to myself every day. (A result of not having to commute.)
6. I get an extra hour of sleep.
7. I sleep better at night because I’m not stressing about getting to work the next day.
8. I get to see Austin at lunchtime.
1. It can be lonely.
2. Internet connection is sucky, making it difficult to access my work files or message people at work. (Though Austin and I are currently working on getting a better signal. This has been a difficult process as we keep waiting on landlord approval.)
3. I don’t have two monitors like I do in the office. (Though Austin and I are planning on getting a monitor for me to hook my work laptop to so I can use two screens.)
Obviously, the pros outweigh the cons. I’m happier (and less stressed) than I’ve been in a long time. I still occasionally have to go up to the office. (I’ve gone up about 3 or 4 times in the last several weeks.) But even then it’s not that bad because it’s only for a day. And then I get to see all of my coworkers, many of whom I really like. Now my only fear is that they’ll take this away. That would be the worst thing ever. It’d be like tasting cheesecake and learning how good it is only to be told that you could never, ever have it again. And then I’d die a little inside. So I’m hoping this will be a permanent thing for as long as I work there.