Showing posts from June, 2009

Happy Father's Day!

Today is a very special Father's Day. Today my husband celebrates Father's Day for the first time as an actual father. It's only been three days and already Austin is such an amazing father.

Morgan loves being held by his daddy and sucking on his finger. I am just so impressed with how Austin loves his son. I married a wonderful man, and he's going to be such a wonderful father.

I'd like to make a shoutout to my own father. Fahja has been such a great dad to me. I'll always be my daddy's little girl no matter how old I get. He's been supportive over the years and always ready with a hug. I know I can always count on my dad. He's never let me down, and I know he never will. I didn't get to see him this year on Father's Day as I was at home with my brand new baby. So since I didn't get to say it before, I'll say it now: Happy Fahja's Day!

Saying Goodbye to One Experience

Well, I did it. I made it through my first pregnancy. I still feel like I'm dreaming a bit. All the waiting is finally over. I'm a mommy.

I'm SO glad to not be pregnant anymore, but a bit sad too surprisingly.

Things I will miss about being pregnant:

1. Feeling my baby move around inside of me - from the first little flips, to the kicks, to the rolling from side to side
2. Feeling more feminine and more of a woman than I've ever felt before
3. Playing the pregnant card (of course now I can play the "I just had a baby" card.)
4. Not trying to lose weight or worrying too much about weight in general
5. Relating to all the other pregnant women out there
6. Having people ask me how I'm feeling

Things I will NOT miss about being pregnant:

1. Morning sickness, nausea, vomiting
2. Not being able to eat certain foods
3. Charlie horses, leg cramps, back cramps
4. headaches, bloating, heartburn
5. Going pee every hour or more
6. Not being able to get out of bed or ben…


Thanks everyone for your kind comments. You'll be happy to know that I'm feeling MUCH better today. The combination of a good night's sleep, seeing my mom, getting the house cleaned (thanks Mom), seeing my doula, and receiving calls and comments of encouragement has made all the difference.

From everyone I've talked to, it's pretty normal to be wavering between two extremes at this point. (My extremes being "totally ready" and "freaking out.")

So D-day is today. And I'm not surprised that Morgan's not here yet. I really didn't think he was coming early. I'm thinking he may make his appearance sometime later this week. If not, I'm willing to bet he won't be any later than the end of next week. We'll see if "mother's intuition" pays off this time.

I'm enjoying my leave from work. I'm still home most of the time, but it's nice to not feel like there's something I'm "supposed" …

The Final Countdown

With one day to go till my estimated due date, I'm currently a nervous wreck. The last several days my mood and feelings have been all over the place. One minute I feel confident and prepared. The next I feel totally intimidated and scared out of my mind. Yesterday was good. I felt ready to go. Last night I couldn't sleep and now I'm tired and feeling totally overwhelmed.

I hate this not knowing when. The whole "this could happen any second" IS not good for my relaxation. I'm so worried that I'm going to go into labor tired and unprepared. And with my whole goal to have a natural birth, I'm worried that if I'm not in optimum condition, my goal will go down the toilet. And that will depress me.

I've spent MONTHS preparing for this upcoming day. And it's all one big question mark. Can I really do this? Really? Part of me is SO ready to have this all over but the other part is petrified about the unknown, even with my months of preparation. I…